One thing that was not expected this year was a global pandemic. I had always shunned away from actively dating, however I did not appreciate the choice I had not to date; something that was taken away when the whole world was told to stay away from public places and social distance from other people. Suddenly my dream of locking eyes with the love of my life across a bar or bowling alley could no longer happen...
During a moment of weakness and loneliness while I was home alone for 2 weeks, I downloaded a dating app with the view of probably deleting it after a few days. I 'matched' with a couple of guys and chatted but typically didn't get much response. However, one person was actually pro active and suggested meeting up; an autumn walk through the forest--perfect!
As well as the usual first date awkwardness there was also the issue of social distancing--how close could we get? Could we hold hands? Could we hug or kiss at the end? (as it happens, none of these were instigated but I don't think that was due to social distancing) and most difficult of all- how do you look attractive in a mask?
New restrictions came in and even though we were both in the lowest tier, there was always the issue of distancing in the background. The coward that I am didn't have the balls to ask if his lack of closeness was because of the pandemic or because he just wasn't interested. When a new lock down came in, it was kind of a blessing in disguise; there was an excuse not to meet without having to ghost or say 'it's just not working out'.
One thing I have learned is that I would much prefer to meet someone in the real world, so all the time this is going on, I'm going to have to find other ways to entertain my single ass...
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